This is something I did a few years ago – I would write a Muse every Monday; and now I do a live broadcast on Facebook from time to time. I miss the art of sitting and writing. To celebrate the 20th Anniversary – I am going to Monday Muse again.
What to write? Wyrdsisters has come a long way; and now I can work wherever I want, and whenever I want. I have fabulous clients and friends; and wish there was a word that describes the two joined together! For clients become friends, and friends become clients.
It has been a journey since I returned home from Australia in 2011; and this year I made a pledge to not talk about the past, and the events I have been through. It is interesting that when you make such a pledge to yourself – how many people want to start talking about the very subject you want to forget. Suddenly, I am being asked questions; and asked to help people out who are facing the same thing (breast cancer). And I just cannot do it. That sounds ungrateful and harsh; but I am not the person who can talk to another person who is suffering; why? Because when I talk to someone about it; it brings up the memories I am trying to put aside. My journey will never be the same as someone else’s. What I went through and experienced will have been totally different and irrelevant.
Everyone walks their own journey; be it with illness; broken heart; broken dreams. And when you reach a place where you feel healed; and you know there are amazing things out there for you, you do not want to recall the past.
Also, I am rather fed up of being told how brave I am/was; how I came out the other side with this new spark of energy and full on attitude. It was not brave; I did not battle a demon; or some dark monster. I was unwell; I had a growth, it was taken out; I was drenched in poisons; and now I am well. It is that simple. There are women (and men) out there with far worse things than a tumour – they are the brave ones.
Wow; I did not expect to write that – that is what I love about Monday Muse – it is my space to write what I want; and obviously this has been a little bit of a thorn in my side.
Someone suggested I write a small booklet or pamphlet on my cancer – how I coped with stuff; tips and things I did to get through it – now that I can do; and then I can just email it. That is now on my ‘to do’ list.
Remember to check the website; there are some interesting readings coming – and the greeting cards have just gone up… you will love those.
Over and out…